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[Dec. 3rd, 2003|09:53 pm] |
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well today wasnt the best day eva..i had a half of day..woop woop..n then i hung out with my wonderful brooke N linda till my driving skewl started..then i went to driving skewl n drove on the free way;) i am so proud of my self..my baby said he was sorry about the whole lauren thing.. i was so happy he said he was sorry..cuz it was really starting to upset me..n he was like britt you know that i wont do u wrong becuase i love u to much..i just hope he is rite..n i hope my mind is rite..cuz i dont want to loose him he is like what brightens my day...well besides muh gurls..Me n GiNa haVe gotten closer..i love that chick..n i dig her so much lol..n she is just so pretty n so funny err i love her...delila marie deleon..wat can i really say about you? ur just a great girl n i love u to death..SARA im glad me and you are talking again woop woop i love u chick hopefully we can still b the bestest of friends...well ay there is nothing excited goin on in my life besides my love STEPHEN lol so imma go now
Much Love
Brittney Nichole
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[Nov. 27th, 2003|04:46 pm] |
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i know it has been a while sense i wrote in here but oh well..sara u are my everything seriously n no matter how bad u hate me imma always love u..well skewl is going good i guess...me n steve are actually doing great..we have been goin out sense the 17 n i finally found someone to make my days so happy..he is just so sweet n nice n actually tells me how he feels..well ya thats about it about my life..ill try to update this as much as i can..MUCH love..Brittney sara leave a comment PLEASE!!!<3 you..my best friends well i dont really have n-e but my close friends are delila n sam n alisha<3 n ya hopefully sara:( |
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[Oct. 8th, 2003|08:18 pm] |
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sorrie that i havnt wrote in here for a while..its just i lost track of it and everything..well anyways..my life hasnt changed much..well a few things have changed but maybe for the better.some people dont like who i am and all i gots to say is FUCK THAT if u dont like me then get over it right? why should i change just because u dont like me i aint perfect no one is perfect so get the fuck over it..anyways me and TOMMY DO NOT TALK ANYMORE...JUST TO LET U GUYS KNOW THAT..i am afficially done with that fag..and me and tim are not going out no more cuz i broke up with him..and i dont have a boyfriend right now cuz i dont need another heart break..yes i do like a few people but keep that on the d.l..n-e ways i am very thank ful for the friends that i have right now..i luv them to death and they know who they are..I GOT MY CELL PHONE BACK TODAY..omg its da shit seriously..WELL..today i really didnt do much..i slept went to cosco chris came ova for a bit so i hung out with him..i met this really cute kid name jon<3 friday..he is such a hottie..whoo..and he is such a sweetheart..even though when he dont get his way about someone scratching his back he is still a sweetheart..well nothing good in my life at all..but ill add sum more later when i think of it.. Much Love Brittney:) |
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[Jul. 15th, 2003|04:58 pm] |
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its kinda wierd...knowing that i get all these feelings and i dont konw what they are...i feel so stupid..i fell for so many guyz that hurt me so bad..i just want to get away from everything..tommy..shawn...****.. every single guy that hurt me. fer sum reason i sit here and wonder why they even liked me at one point.maybe they didnt they could of been playing tricks on my mind.probably..but it hurts.it reall does..knowing that the person that i cared for the most just blows up in my face..ya i did cry ova shawn i know it may sound stupid but i actually did..i really did care for this kid. and i dont know what to think anymore because he said he loved me and look now everything is ruined..i need to just get over everything..but its hard. i dont know what to think who to like who to even love..maybe i shouldnt love..love is just a painful word that hurts worse then hate..i dont understand anymore. im thankful that i got my friends..they know who they are and i love u guys with all my heart..its just hard..they may not see it but deep down inside of me i cry in my own lil world.for some reason my life has been fucked up lately..my family,my love, even sum of my friends,, i dont know anymore this time im gonna give up on loven and i mean it!!!! |
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| last 2 dayz |
[Jul. 15th, 2003|12:56 am] |
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well sorry that i didnt write in here for yesterday its just i was at mels and she didnt have a computer! well this is what happened! yesterday me and mel and sara hung out like all day then mel's mom wanted us in sense i was stayen a night there at `10 so we hung out with this kid jeff that we met till 10 then me N mel snuck out when her mommy went to bed it was great!!! we went to chris's house and he is da shit i had fun!! then we came home around 4 in da mornin...her mom didnt found out that was good!!! then today i woke up at mel's and dan called me and mel and sara where bored so we asked him if he wanted to hang out and he was like yea so we went to the pool hall with him we had fun..i learned a few things...lol well anyways thats what happened ova the past 2 days witch wasnt fun fun but it was fun to me mel and sara knows what im talken about!! lol!!! jeff is a pretty tight person if ya ask me he aint all that bad but he fallowed us everywere we went and asked us for hugs out of know where lol it was great even though he had a stairing problem..well anyways thats what happened dan is fun to hang out with just to let u all know that
well love ya lotz
love brittney |
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[Jul. 12th, 2003|11:04 pm] |
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well today wasnt all that fun..me N sam and sara hung out we went to the pool hall sam got into trouble so had to go home.. then me and sara hung out till like 10:30 and did absolutly nothing..aint that just sum fun! chris is grounded for 2 weeks witch really sucks becuase now i cant see him! my brother has been a dick lately and im fed up with it! u know i did nothing wrong to him and for him to act like he is hard shit makes me just wanna run away and never come back..im really sick of it...and i just cant take this pain built up anymore and im about to EXPLODE! theres nothing else to talk about so im OUT! |
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| sorry i havnt wrote in a while |
[Jul. 12th, 2003|01:30 am] |
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ok well this is how my life has been goin sense last time i wrote in this! well me and tim arent going out anymore! we broke up like a month later! i moved on i broke up with him because i had feelings for someone else! well i thought i did! until he hurt me like every other guy has! it seems like love just hates me!i can never find the real love that im looken for! well anyways i met this kid name shawn! we made out alot and i thought i was in love with him but i really wasnt! and he thought he was in love with me but he aint! and its all great! well me and my family got into a big fight i was supose to be grounded for a month but that didnt really work out because i got off! i was sOOO close to b moven in with my mom but i stopped my self! i literly cryed for dayz knowing what its gonna b like to b on my own! and my mind is just to young to think of all of that! and i found out who really cared for me when i was hurt!! and his name is mr..christopher! i mean he aint no biggy but i love him! and he means the world to me! but anyways i went to the pool hall tonight! it wasnt all that great because my brother treated me like shit! he said i was a whore! chris got mad when he said that because i was talken to chris outside! well maybe i am a whore but only god can judge me on my life!!! my dad dont trust me anymore whats new? but anyways thats practicly my whole life for now on ill try to update yew on anything that happens! i dont like tommy anymore witch is a good thing u guys should b proud of me! well im out
love brittney |
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| ~*~HAPPY~*~ |
[May. 7th, 2003|06:02 pm] |
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well today was pretty crappy because it was kind rainen all day and pretty gay if yew ask me! well anyways yesterday i had a blast! tim asked me out! im so happy that me and him are going out i like him alot! and the WIERD thing is im not thinken of t/f/s and that is a good thing because i dont want to spend my whole lyfe wrapped around him when i got someone else! i love tim alot! he is such a sweetheart! and i hope that we last<3!!! the *6* he asked me out awe awe awe aint that just to cute? well anyways im OVA T/F/S thank god and im on with someone new! thank yew sam for helpen me out wif tim! now its tight me N sam are going out with a tim! YAY! well im going to go now so love ya all buh bye |
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[May. 4th, 2003|08:21 pm] |
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well today was pretty fun! i went to a birthday party my lil cousins..and i seen my cousins that i havnt seen in like 4eva amber and ashley! omg amber got so cute! i love her! well anyways i brought sam and sara with me to because its no fun when i dont even know anyone there! so i brought them 2! and then we were playing basketball with a group of kids that we didnt even know! then i met this kid name tim! yea i do kinda like him no doubt about it! he is a lil cutie! and sam asked him if he liked me and he was like well if i didnt like her i wouldnt play basketball with her! i think that were getting off to a good start! well anyways it was pretty tight i didnt get home till like 7 but its all good! well last night i went to the pool hall with my brother chris dan and sara! it was alright i mean no biggy! then on da way back we were going to drive by tommy's house! well out of know where we seen tommy drive right by us! i felt so stupid and i like started cryen but i hid my face in my sweater so that no one could see it! i just hate that feeling when u think u love him but when u know it then its a bad thing! like why would u love someone that hates ur guts? well i know how that feels because that is what im going through! i just feel so stupid ya know? like he doesnt care but people say that he cares he just doesnt show it! i dont know what to think anymore like what if he comes back to me then what am i going to do? am i going to tell him no or am i going to go back to him? its all so hard on me im only a teenager and ur supose to be a grown up to fall in love! its just so hard! he doesnt even notice me! my ex tom told me to make him notice me and thats what im going to do im going to make him notice me! well anyways thats all that really happened so im going to go now!
love always N forever
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| TODAY SUCKED!!! |
[May. 2nd, 2003|10:30 pm] |
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well today really sucked! brooke and laura thought they could be slick but guess what they were wrong! my brother and his friends went after them! it was pretty funny! well anyways today sara and sam came ova and then sara had these pillz and we took them and i feel all wierd now! i seroiusly dont feel right! i feel like im deing lol! sam is staying a night! im really bored and tired! and upset! TOMMY UPSET ME SO GOD DANM BAD! ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY! I seriously hate his gutz! i dont want nothing to do with him and this time i really mean it! because he hurt me way to many times! well anyways i dont know what else to say so im going to go
lov3 ya lotz
lov3 always
s3xi3 b33 |
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| ~*~poem~*~ |
[Apr. 30th, 2003|08:36 pm] |
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when i think of yew
i break down and cry
you mkae my life so blue
i feel like it would be better if i died
as i watch this tear
the tear that wont ever go away
becaues ur not neer
and all i wanted was for yew to stay
all those lies yew told me
the kisses i thought was true
i cant believe i couldnt see
and you always new
u new i was in love
u new it all along
how could u play my heart like that?
but now im gonna be strong
even though ill remember the past
i dont want to see another kiss
because i know it will not last
i want a guy 2 hold me
all threw the night
i want him to see
my love lived through a fright
i want a guy who understands
my emotoins are real
i want a guy to hold my hand
and say i know how u feel
i want a guy to say i love yew
and really do mean it
i want him to know what i go through
but until then here i sit
made by Brittney Schuholz |
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| ~*~for da past 2 dayz~*~ |
[Apr. 30th, 2003|01:52 pm] |
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well for da last two dayz i felt like SHIT! all i could really think about was him and what he did to me! i cant believe it! i talked to him on da phone but he was with dennis and nole! i was like tommy i dont understand yew then he was like what happened in da past was in da past then he was like i moved on and im liven my life! i should be happy in a way i guess but its hard because i was in love with that kid at one point! now its all slowly slippen away! i just dont understand anymore! and im not gonna try to understand because every time i undastand i get crushed!i mean i felt stupid because last night i cried in front of sara just thinken about him! i just dont understand guys seriously! i dont understand them at all!
well i didnt go to school 2day i dont know what was wrong with me! i just didnt feel good!
i want to thank sara for helpen me out! thank yew so much sara i luh yew!
i woke up at 1:30 today man i was really tired and my tummy hurt thats why i didnt go to school! but im all betta now! yea my life is all gracy! NOT! because i am missing one part of my lyfe and everyone knows who dat is....
Lov3 Always N for3v3r
S3x!3 B33
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[Apr. 28th, 2003|08:42 pm] |
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i seriously dont know what to do anymore! all i think about is him! and when i close my eyes i can see all the shit that we did! i dont know how to get him off my mind! i wish all of this could just go away! i dont want to think of him! and im sick of all this bullshit i really dont know what to do wif my life anymore! i wish that he would understand how i feel! (t/f/s) i just dont understand what i did so wrong! well i know what i did wrong but if i could i would take all of this back so i know that me and him could still be friends! people dont understand how i feel and what i go through! its just so hard on me i never thought i could actually fall in love at the age of 14 i mean yea theres always someone that u think u love but really dont but i seriously think i love him! i mean i close my eyes and all i see is him! and when i go to sleep i dream about him!
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i close my eyes and think of yew
some how i see everything that we use to do
i dont know how to take things back just for one last time
it seems like my love is a crime
i wish there was a way to hold u close
i wish u didnt care that everyone knows
what go's on between me and u
i wish u only new
that all this pian gets built up
one of these dayz im going to erupt
tell u how i really feel
let u know that i need u im 4 real
i need ur touch
because i miss it so much
i cry my self to sleep
knowing that my love for u is deep
i cant take back what i said
it go's ova and ova in my head
i need to move on
but ur da one that i look upon
i miss ur smile
i havnt seen that in a while
but i will get ova this emotional thing
one of these dayz i will have a ring
from someone that really cares
that knows that my love is fair
and he loves me for me
and wont ever let me be
that will love me for myself
and then my love wont need anymore help
because i will love him and we will be a team
but then again a girl can dream!
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dedicated to t/f/s i made it my self!
i just love him so much its unreal!
love always
s3x!3 b33 4-sho |
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| ~*~today~*~ |
[Apr. 28th, 2003|07:52 pm] |
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well today was pretty boring! i had school unfortenitly! and also tommy's cousin told me that tommy was comen back today! and what did u know he came back! and i felt so wierd because i left a message on his phone b4 sayen how people told me to go to the police but i couldnt because i cared to much about him! i dont know i just feel like im in love wif him its so wierd! i mean i never felt like diz before for some guy! and he hurt me so freaken bad that i cry my self to sleep! i just cant take diz pain anymore!
anyways, kim imed me talken her shit it was pretty funny! i just laughed in her face because she accused me of shit that doesnt even make sense! well anyways i dont really know what to talk about!
i just like him so freaken much and he just dont realize it and i wish i could just talk to him but he has no time to listen to my problems! i just feel like screaming on the top of my lungs!
oh ya by da way sam is still grounded:(
so i just hung out wif sara today! i LUH her!
but i love him 2:(
Love Always N forever
S3X!3 B33
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[Apr. 27th, 2003|07:13 pm] |
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well today was pretty boring if yew ask me! i am hangen out wif sara i luh her alot! but i thought tommy was back and i was really scared! i mean if u new what happened then u undastand what i am going through! its kinda hard because im not really sure if i like him anymore or not! and everyone tells me to get ova him but ya know its hard when people try to tell u what to do! and another thing kim gets me so mad! i can not believe she called me and sam a whore! how can we be da whore when she is da one that go's and screws everyone? w/e! well on da way back when i walked to meet sara half way we seen this guy at 2o's house! ( and everyone knows i dont like 2o) well anyways he was fallowing me and sara and he was like how old are u guyz sara was like im 12 and Brittney is 11 the guys is like omg and he walked away! honestly journal THIS GUY WAS UGLY! eew! anyways thats all i know for now but if theres any more good news den ill hit u up 4sho!
--i really dont know what to do anymore i just like him so much and i know i should get ova him and all but its just so god danm hard!--
Love Always N for3v3r
S3x!3 B33 bzz bzz
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| ~*~saturday~*~(yesturrday) |
[Apr. 27th, 2003|02:31 pm] |
well yesterday was pretty fun but then again boring! well diz is what happened! ok me N sam walked to timmy's house and it was pretty tight we hung out wif timmy and rob! then lata on we got a ride home from nate now nate is a lil cutie i mean 4sho! he is a hottie 4SHO! den when we got back to sammi's house we went online! den kim started getting mad because we were supose to hang out wif chris N timmy later on and she likes chris! oh well we didnt hang out wif dem so KIM GROW UP!well den we called up christopher asked if he was picken up my brother from work (jeepers) and he said yes so then we asked if we could go so we can shoot pool lata he was like let me call yew guyz back! so then he called us back and he was like look out ur window! so sam looked out her window den BOOM chris was dare! so then we got in da car wif him to go pick up my brother! then we went into jeepers and i got to work dair for en hour! it was pretty tight! i had fun! until dem boyz dare started talken about tommy:( that really hurt! den...we got off work at 11pm. so den we went to muh house so my brother can change so he can go to da pool hall! that took like an half an hour! den by time we started going it was 11:30 but oh well den we had to stop at gregs to pick him up because he was shooting pool wif us! so den he got in den we went to go shoot pool! well den out of know where sams mom calls her and sam was in trouble for being out to late! den her mom came and picked her up and we all left! i FELT SO BAD! but i am sure she is alright wif dat! anyways then i didnt get home till 2 in da morning! luckely muh daddy wasnt home yet! shheew! im lucky like dat! well thats what happened yestuurrrday! if anything new happens today then ill hit u up 4sho!
wif lotz of lov3
Br!ttn3y
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